Thursday, March 17, 2011

Not in keeping with the usual blog

My husband, Jon, and I were talking tonight about being prepared for the worst. I just wanted to share some of what we talked about, because I feel like it's already causing me to grow as a person, a wife, a parent, etc.

We live in a world, in a time and culture where everything and everyone has the attitude of "gimme' gimme'!" And when they get what they wanted, it's no longer enough. They start to shout, "Gimme'!" All the more. I didn't even think about this fact before tonight, but it's a good thing to remember: for every time you get your way, somebody else does not. You got the house, somebody else who wanted that same house lost out. You got the job, somebody who needed/wanted that job didn't get it. You got the promotion, someone else lost out on that promotion, and so on and so forth it goes.

It's a good thing to keep in mind, when we are throwing tantrums at God and asking Him, "Why haven't you given me that job yet?! Why aren't I out of debt? Why don't I have more money?!" God is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent. He has the best of intentions for you. If I did not get that job, it probably went to someone who needed it more than me. It's a good way to view life, to know that God is in control, and to just keep striving to do your best in everything you do and in everything you are.

It is also good to wake up every morning with the thought that things could be a whole lot worse, ie: you could be a victim of the tsunami, you could have lost a loved one to that tragedy, you could lose your job, you could lose your health, you could lose your limbs, etc. and I know some of these things sound extreme, but they happen everyday to unassuming people just like you and I, and the only way to be able to face these things is to know who you are, who God is and to be totally grounded in that and to realize that God is in control. It also makes everyday life seem more like the miracle and blessing that is truly is. I am going to put these things into effect in my own life immediately.

Now in the keeping of my usual blog, big progress is being made with my weight loss break through. I am involved in this "event", at my church called Regenerate. It's a lot like lent. We are fasting something or things, that are holding us back for 40 days and we are in this all together. It is so encouraging and powerful to know that we are all pressing on toward God and making progress together and it has helped to keep me on track.
"And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting." Mark 9:29

"Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins."
1 Peter 4:8

Monday, March 7, 2011

Just found out part of what has been holding me back....thank God they found it

<a href="http://www.mayoclinic.com
/health/hypothyroidism/DS00353">Hypothyroidism (underactive thyroid)</a>

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

fear is a bad thing

I went to my set free class tonight and fear came up again. And for anyone who has known me for most of my life, they know that I was literally born a fearful baby. When I was born, I was afraid of everybody including my own dad. I clung to my mom for dear life. When I was ages 0-5 I had horrendous reoccurring dreams of the grim reaper coming into my house and killing everyone but me, leaving me as an orphan. I had desperate fears every time we got into the car that we would get into a car accident and my whole family would die except for me, and I would be left alone and it caused me to be car sick on almost every car ride. When I got to be a little older I would stay awake at night when my mom worked late, cause I would be worried that my mom was hurt or dead, and I could not sleep until she got home. This of course was made worse when my mom did almost die twice.
Fear has been a big part of my life. It has held me back from a lot of things and kept me from being truly happy for a long time. Even when Jon and I first got married I was so fearful of everything. If I heard a slight noise outside I would be up all night worrying. I gave that to God and He took it from me, but when my daughter was born, a new fear crept up. I would be up so many nights watching her breathe, making sure she was OK and when she graduated from the bassinet to the crib I worried that something was going on in there, and would be kept up most nights worrying about things I couldn't see, that were not even happening.
I eventually (quite recently) gave that to God as well, and He took that worry away. There are other things that still worry me, and I realize it is the main thing holding me back from my weight loss and I need to get rid of fear and all forms of fear. For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.1 Timothy 1:7. If God has not given us a spirit of fear, then the only explanation of where fear comes from, is that it comes from the devil and that is so true. Without you being fearful, the devil has no power over you, plain and simple.
Here are some excerpts from my "12 Steps for Christians" book we are studying.
Resentment and fear are 2 issues that need to be dealt with before we can begin the process of taking inventory. Our resentment toward people, places and things that have injured us keeps us preoccupied and limits our ability to live in the present moment. Resentment results from hiding the bitter hurts that have tarnished our lives. It evokes anger, frustration and depression. When our resentments are unresolved, we risk developing severe physical and mental illness.
Fear limits our ability to be rational. When fear is present, it is difficult to see situations in their true perspective. Fear is the root of other repressive and painful feelings. It prevents us from expressing ourselves honestly and stops us from responding in appropriate ways to threatening situations. So to change our behavior, we must first face and accept our fears. By acknowledging our fearful nature, we can expect a temporary loss of self-esteem; fortunately this will return as we become more willing to rely on God.